Every new year's eve is definitely an absolute joy. You get to hang out with friends and family, get a barbecue goin', light some fireworks, it's always about fun and doing fun things. Although let's be honest, it's a lot more than that. I mean trust me I don't like deadlines and seriousness especially when it has to interrupt the fun that's currently commencing. But I guess it's fair to say that the fun itself, unaccompanied by some deep reflections would bring no meaning to the new year celebration itself. In other words, it's a waste of bloody time. Precious time.
I always ask myself a question every new year's eve. Well, at least I always try to ask myself a question every new year's eve. The question in question is "Without the noise, without the hustle and bustle, what kind of things would I think of tonight?" Well it's probably not exactly like that but my point is that I always try to reflect over the last 364 days (sometimes 365, obviously). I try to gather my memories and sort of sum up the kind of situations I've been through throughout the year. In this year I've experienced heartbreak, losses, trips abroad, and many many more. And with each of those situations obviously comes lessons. Especially with the bad and uncomfortable situations. One of the most important lessons I've learnt this year is about trust.
I learnt about how fragile trust is. I mean I already knew that it is but I never would've came to the conclusion upon how fragile it actually is if it weren't for this year. It's like a snowflake really. There's no easy way to touch it without breaking it. In fact you even have to watch your breathing when you're around it so that it doesn't melt. But at the same time it's also as complicated as a Rubik's Cube. Well, no. Not only a normal Rubik's Cube but it's more like one that's trying to constantly fight you back. Turning on it's own will. Trying so hard to mess up your progress. And so trying to reason with trust is one of the challenges that I have to face this year.
But although it may seem like this year has outweighed me with challenges, allow me to voice my gratefulness. Because this year not only presented me with problems. It also gave me the courage to not be afraid of being myself and the reasons to fight for what I believe in. Those things I definitely need not only to face next year but also the years to come. So I'm grateful for this year and I definitely couldn't have possibly felt so if I chose to not give any meaning to this new year's eve.
So without the noise, without the hustle and bustle, what kind of new year's eve would this be to you? I know what kind of new year's eve mine is. It's a new year's eve full of gratefulness. What about you?
I learnt about how fragile trust is. I mean I already knew that it is but I never would've came to the conclusion upon how fragile it actually is if it weren't for this year. It's like a snowflake really. There's no easy way to touch it without breaking it. In fact you even have to watch your breathing when you're around it so that it doesn't melt. But at the same time it's also as complicated as a Rubik's Cube. Well, no. Not only a normal Rubik's Cube but it's more like one that's trying to constantly fight you back. Turning on it's own will. Trying so hard to mess up your progress. And so trying to reason with trust is one of the challenges that I have to face this year.
But although it may seem like this year has outweighed me with challenges, allow me to voice my gratefulness. Because this year not only presented me with problems. It also gave me the courage to not be afraid of being myself and the reasons to fight for what I believe in. Those things I definitely need not only to face next year but also the years to come. So I'm grateful for this year and I definitely couldn't have possibly felt so if I chose to not give any meaning to this new year's eve.
So without the noise, without the hustle and bustle, what kind of new year's eve would this be to you? I know what kind of new year's eve mine is. It's a new year's eve full of gratefulness. What about you?
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